I'm sorry, I am not completely sober at the moment and while it doesn't change many of my thoughts, I type without thinking, so I apologize. I deleted all my posts and I'm gonna try to sum it up here.
I went way overboard on the whole "scum of the human race" and stuff, but my point is that I personally think that suicide is cowardly as previously said. You want to give up on life because you can't take it any more. But you've only experienced the bad side of life. Life is amazing. I want you to try to fix your troubles and get a taste of what life really can offer. It's gonna be tough, but worth it. The reason being that you hurt a lot of things to escape the pain. There are other ways to escape the pain, so suicide is not the right option imo. There's in the very most cases a solution to your problems other than suicide. It might take years to overcome, however it will be worth it. Most people thinking about suicide are in their teens I believe. They literally have their whole lives in front of them, why would you let that go to waste?
I think by thinking a bit selflessly you can turn the situation around a bit. If you can endure the pain and overcome it, in the future you can get a child and prevent the same situation happening to that child. Set a goal to bring happiness to others, so that they don't have to experience what you did. This is the kind of people humanity needs, and this is the kind of people that others look up to.
I previously mentioned one way (IN MY OPINION) to try to solve your problems is moving away from the source. Getting the funds to support it can be achieved in multiple ways, and it depends a lot on where you are living. Loans would probably be the way to go. Several countries provide free higher education and also the government some places give money if you have big troubles getting by in life. Take advantage of this to build yourself a career, but please don't be a dick and abuse it like a lot of the immigrant fucks in our country. Nobody likes them, and they do no good. That aside, if you want money to be able to suppotr building a career, I welcome you with open arms.
Emotional problems are probably the best, however you might be able to get help here. First of all find the source. Now you can either try to talk to a psychiatrist, or you can seek out multiple other options to get help - most of which involves talking to other people. Online support forums, for example, is a great option and I highly recommend it.
Suicide might seem like the quickest escape route, but it's not the best one. Having only lived 1/5th ish if your life, where the entire life you've been unable to do things. Imagine all the amazing shit you can do if you can break free from your troubles and get out in the world.
Of course, if you have a disease, illness or disability, things will be different. It'll probably be a lot harder. But that doesn't mean that there is not a solution. There are very many people in the world that happily will take care of you if you are disabled in some way, so seek out help and get there. If you have mental problems there are cures. If you have some kind of disability, don't lose hope - technology is evolving extremely fast these days and in some years there might just be a cure for you.
I don't have any experience here really, I've had a great life so far. I'm trying to think logically and put myself in your place. Perhaps due to my past I am usually thinking very optimistically, however in that case I want to try to influence others to do the same. I'm a rather simplistic human being. If you give me a place to stay, a chance at an education/job, and internet then I will be more than happy to live like that for a long time. This is the basis for why I'm saying "take a loan and move". Because I believe it's much easier to get a hold of yourself and solve your problems if you can move away and start fresh. Most of your problems will probably be able to disappear if your start fresh with a new mindset. It will be a lot like as if you were born there instead, however you've already gone past the phase where things go bad. After your teens people don't bully you any more; people live their own life and just want to get on. And you too. This way it's much easier to just get by and get used to a "normal" life I think.
But as already pointed out I'm not an expert. I'm just sharing my thoughts. But this was posted on an anime forum, what kind of people do you expect to reply? Yeah, other normal people will. So if you need help, please seek out support or an actual expert. Take a loan or whatever. Money isn't worth shit compared to your life, it's much more valuable. You can always fix money later in life, but if you don't fix your emotional problems now it's gonna bother you for the rest of your life.
But, hell, suicide is NOT the right option. Please. You hurt everyone you know, you hurt the society, you hurt humanity, and you waste a life. I want you to prove that you are worthy of being born - and you are as long as you do not give up. Get a dream. Work towards your dream. Achieve your dream. I like to think of life as a journey where you only succeed if you die of age. If you die by other means, then you did an honorable attempt, and that's okay. You did your best, and that's good enough. You can rest in peace. But if you take your own life, because you give up. then you failed. Everyone has a different definition of happiness. If your entire body is disabled and everybody hates you, find something else to bring your happiness. Don't give up. I don't care, run away to the internet and watch anime 24/7. But please, live your life. Don't let it go to waste.